Black or White

Hard Earned Weekend

2006-06-17T22:47:00.000-07:00

The hard earned weekend is finally here...yet again gone in a flash. At least this week wasn't too bad as i didn't have to work on the same shift as that Bitch! Well lets just keep my fingers crossed about the coming week.

Work has been very routine, though every now and then some complicated cases come in but the work that we do is so mundane. I really don't wish things would come to this, which is me getting sick of what i am studying. It is not that i dislike nursing, but it is how the nurses are treated here and our job scope that puts me off. I hope this flame within won't be extinguished by the end of this attachment. Still holding on that bit of hope that things would be better.

I am so looking forward to my HK trip, can't wait to see all my friends there!!! Well at least that's a goal to look forward to

Nursing as a profession

2006-06-09T11:24:00.000-07:00

Been away for a long time, guess it is time to bring life back to this old blog of mine. Currently on attachment, at TTSH. And all i got to say is, I detest Ward 11D, one of the most unorganised, unhelpful, unconducive ward ever. All of this set me thinking and thus this entry comes in.

Is nursing ever going to be recongise as a profession in S'pore? I used to think that it would be, but now i guess it would have to take more than 10 years for a change. Whenever people asked me which course am i in, after giving them an answer which was nursing. They often give the look of disbelief *in a bad way* Well i guess maybe our job is stigmatized as "hand maiden/maid" of the doctors. True, we help to clean up at times but why don't people see us for the important roles that we play in the wards. In other countries, nurses DO NOT clean up after patients *or at least to the minimum* Back here, that is part of our never ending workload. All the communication and counselling skills that were taught in school could just be chucked away as we don't even have time for lunch break. We learn so much about the body systems etc and we end up cleaning shit! So what makes us different from maids, just that we know abit more knowleadge off hand.

Nursing is such a proud profession over in the States and UK, but in local context, it is always associated with poor grades etc. The vicious cycle continues, people would always think that nursing is a dirty job and nurses themselves do not want to stand up and speak up about this issues. It takes two hands to clap, society should start to acknowledge us and we nurses should start to THINK and not just follow orders like a maid.

So please start to show an ounce of appreciation !

Time flies

2006-03-02T23:33:00.000-08:00

Never seem to have time to update ever since the last post. I guess even the most loyal readers of this blog had given up waiting. Sorry guys, been really busy with all the school projects. Time has past us by so quickly, 3rd year students are graduating and I am going to be in that position soon. To friends who took the A levels, good job if you did well and to the others who didnt do as well, don't despair, though it may be important but this is just going to be a small bump in the long road of Life itself.

I've always been discouraged from pursuing my dreams. Comments such as "no, you are just wasting your time!" or "you can't make it" is often hurled towards me at the mere mention of my passion. Skepticism usually arises whenever they question me about my skills, I really do wonder what did I ever do to give people such an impression. The burning flame within me that I nurtured it since a young age is often close to being extinguished. Recently I read an article over the Straits Times and learnt that there is someone who was in the same situation as me achieved her goals through sheer determination. Though the road she took was way longer than the conventional one, but I believed she had always kept that flame burning. It's also through the support of her friends and loved ones, I believe that that was the source of encouragement, the source of strength to carry on no matter how tough it gets. I am glad that my parents had been really supportive of my dream, and to my friends who encouraged me to pursue it, THANK YOU! I will prove to all you out there who scorned and laughed at me, when that dream is finally realized, it would be me who laughs last!

Headed down to school today for project meeting, had to think of a role-play for our presentation on HIV/AIDS. Haha and NO we ain't gonna do a live demo!!! We decided to follow the show " The Scrooge" (For those who don't know, shame on you! haha it's about an old bitter miser is given a chance for redemption when he is haunted by ghosts on Christmas Eve) but this time it's going to be a typical girl in a bar getting hooked up by a guy who wants to sleep with her. And this time the ghosts of her consequences haunt her. Original yea? Haha

After which I received an urgent call from Mr. Guru saying that he needed Napfa testers so took the job and earned some quick cash. Sometimes I wonder if I am too lenient as a tester, often at times I try to pass them but they often screw it up in their 2.4km run. They just give up, I mean I went through all the effort in helping them and they don't even want to jog through the 2.4km run when tired. Either gives up on the 3rd round or start walking. I know it's tiring and painful but there wasn't any effort shown to begin with, I now understand the frustration Mr. Guru felt all these while. Here we are trying to pass them when they relinquished all hopes. Gosh those useless SCUMBAGS!

Realised that Psychology test isn't on Monday....what a relief!!!

Just watched Underworld: Evolution today! It was a really good movie but not very suitable for the weak stomached as a lot of blood and gore is involved.

*Note: Buying of snacks would be unnecessary as you will end up not eating them*

The sequel to the $100 million worldwide hit, "Underworld: Evolution" continues the saga of war between the aristocratic Death Dealers and the barbaric Lycans (werewolves).The film traces the beginnings of the ancient feud between the two tribes as Selene (Kate Beckinsale), the beautiful vampire heroine, and Michael (Scott Speedman), the lycan hybrid, try to unlock the secrets of their bloodlines. The fast-paced, modern-day tale of deadly action, ruthless intrigue and forbidden love takes them into the battle to end all wars as the immortals must finally face their retribution.

The movie is very action packed! Definitely keeps you at the edge of your seat! Haha Jeremy and I concluded that the gore in the show was pretty much like Happy Tree Friends; only that this is more human rather than some cartoons. The effects were so totally awesome! Out of 10, I would give this movie a 7.5 - 8!!! So to my blood and gore loving sadistic friends, this is definitely a show not to miss! Oh and did I mention that there is some "revealing" parts in the show, haha well what's that? It's for you all to find out!

--W.S a.k.a The Fox--

Happy Valentine Day

2006-02-14T00:01:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day

Love is in the air......i think. Well it's Valentine's Day, not like it's a big thing for me as i am still single and available haha *hint hint*. People shopping for flowers and chocolates, placing booking at high ends restaurants, writing love notes. All ready to go out to impress their girl/boyfriends. Haha the amount of effort they put in for their studies isn't even half of what they put in for THE day. Well i guess it's a standard, we all go around celebrating this day just like any other holidays even when this isn't one. But has anyone ever wonder how did Valentine's Day came about? I mean there are reasons for every special day like Jesus being borned on Christmas Day and Chinese New Year is when they chased away some monster. Haha i bet i caught most of you all there huh, been celebrating for the many many years and not know how this day came about.

The history of Valentine's Day -- and its patron saint -- is shrouded in mystery. But we do know that February has long been a month of romance. St. Valentine's Day, as we know it today.
One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men -- his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death. Other stories suggest that Valentine may have been killed for attempting to help Christians escape harsh Roman prisons where they were often beaten and tortured.
According to one legend, Valentine actually sent the first 'valentine' greeting himself. While in prison, it is believed that Valentine fell in love with a young girl -- who may have been his jailor's daughter -- who visited him during his confinement. Before his death, it is alleged that he wrote her a letter, which he signed 'From your Valentine,' an expression that is still in use today. Although the truth behind the Valentine legends is murky, the stories certainly emphasize his appeal as a sympathetic, heroic, and, most importantly, romantic figure. It's no surprise that by the Middle Ages, Valentine was one of the most popular saints in England and France.

While some believe that Valentine's Day is celebrated in the middle of February to commemorate the anniversary of Valentine's death or burial -- which probably occurred around 270 A.D -- others claim that the Christian church may have decided to celebrate Valentine's feast day in the middle of February in an effort to 'christianize' celebrations of the pagan Lupercalia festival.

In ancient Rome, February was the official beginning of spring and was considered a time for purification. Houses were ritually cleansed by sweeping them out and then sprinkling salt and a type of wheat called spelt throughout their interiors. Lupercalia, which began at the ides of February, February 15, was a fertility festival dedicated to Faunus, the Roman god of agriculture, as well as to the Roman founders Romulus and Remus.
To begin the festival, members of the Luperci, an order of Roman priests, would gather at the sacred cave where the infants Romulus and Remus, the founders of Rome, were believed to have been cared for by a she-wolf or lupa. The priests would then sacrifice a goat, for fertility, and a dog, for purification. The boys then sliced the goat's hide into strips, dipped them in the sacrificial blood and took to the streets, gently slapping both women and fields of crops with the goathide strips *Yikes! Thats gross!!!*. Far from being fearful, Roman women welcomed being touched with the hides because it was believed the strips would make them more fertile in the coming year. Later in the day, according to legend, all the young women in the city would place their names in a big urn. The city's bachelors would then each choose a name out of the urn and become paired for the year with his chosen woman. These matches often ended in marriage. Pope Gelasius declared February 14 St. Valentine's Day around 498 A.D. The Roman 'lottery' system for romantic pairing was deemed un-Christian and outlawed. Later, during the Middle Ages, it was commonly believed in France and England that February 14 was the beginning of birds' mating season, which added to the idea that the middle of February -- Valentine's Day -- should be a day for romance. The oldest known valentine still in existence today was a poem written by Charles, Duke of Orleans to his wife while he was imprisoned in the Tower of London following his capture at the Battle of Agincourt. The greeting, which was written in 1415, is part of the manuscript collection of the British Library in London, England. Several years later, it is believed that King Henry V hired a writer named John Lydgate to compose a valentine note to Catherine of Valois.

In Great Britain, Valentine's Day began to be popularly celebrated around the seventeenth century. By the middle of the eighteenth century, it was common for friends and lovers in all social classes to exchange small tokens of affection or handwritten notes. By the end of the century, printed cards began to replace written letters due to improvements in printing technology. Ready-made cards were an easy way for people to express their emotions in a time when direct expression of one's feelings was discouraged. Cheaper postage rates also contributed to an increase in the popularity of sending Valentine's Day greetings. Americans probably began exchanging hand-made valentines in the early 1700s. In the 1840s, Esther A. Howland began to sell the first mass-produced valentines in America.

Valentine's Day came from such a long way, though there isn't dogs and goat sacrifices, but i guess it's meaning: Love, is being preserved. So once again to all you love birds out there, Happy Valentine's Day!!! And to the singles *including myself*, better luck next time! Haha while others are out squeezing with the crowds, i guess i would just stay at home and indulge in the chocolates that i bought for myself. Haha woohoo!

--W.S a.k.a The Fox--

CNY

2006-02-04T23:59:00.000-08:00

Hey guys! Have not updated for some time due to Chinese New Year and report writing. To all my chinese friends, "Xin Nian Kuai Le"!!!. And happy holidays to the rest as well. Had reunion dinners and went around visiting. Been the same almost every year.

Caught a few movies recently, one would be "Fun with Dick and Jane" and the other would be the long awaited "Memoirs of a Geisha". Here's a little synopsis for those who don't know what this show is about.

"Dick and Jane are in love and living the American dream - until one day it becomes an American nightmare. When the company Dick works for becomes involved in an Enron-like scandal and he takes the rap, Dick and Jane are forced with the prospect of losing everything. After playing by the rules and getting burned, Dick has an idea: If stealing was good enough for his boss, then it's good enough for him. Using his newfound skills, he and Jane decide to exact hilarious revenge and teach big business a lesson."

Not a bad show, give it like 3.5 out of 5. It's more t

o slapstick humour, well its Jim Carrey in it. But nonetheless managed to lighten my mood for the day

In the years before World War II, a Japanese child is torn from her penniless family to work as a geisha house. Despite a treacherous rival who nearly breaks her spirit, the girl blossoms into the legendary geisha Sayuri. Beautiful and accomplished, Sayuri captivates the most powerful men of her day, but is haunted by her secret love for the one man beyond her reach.

I love this show! I give it 4 out of 5. Gong Li's acting was so good, the perfect "bad guy". It has a hint of witty humour and it was really able to let the audience feel for "Sayuri". To pursue one's desire, sacrifices have to be made, this was what the show was trying to put across.

Well going to head off to bed. Nights everyone and have a great Chinese New Year once again

--W.S a.k.a The Fox--

IVP

2006-01-24T15:27:00.000-08:00

Finally, IVP is over. Many thanks to the helpers who came down for the 3 days to make this event run smoothly and congrats to NYP for coming in third in the overall score! To the track team : Great job guys! Haha this year i didn't participate as i just got back from Outward Bound Korea and didn't get much time to train for it. Well there is still next year to look forward to. Chinese New Year is just a few days away, now get to see *dong dong qiang* (lion dance) everywhere. Went Chinese New Year shopping with Dexter, was pretty unfruitful as i managed to get a T-shirt only. Haha things are just too expensive, S$40+ for a t-shirt!!! Could get two tees in Hong Kong at the price of S$30+. But managed to find a shop that sells quite alot of DC USA stuff.

This Brand Rocks!!!

Went to watch Football Hooligan(or also known as Green Street Hooligans) after that, was a really good show although there were excessive swearing but the story plot itself was very original. I give it two thumbs up! For the benefit for those who don't know what is it about, here's the synopsis :

"Expelled unfairly from Harvard, American Matt Buckner (Elijah Wood) flees to England to his sister's home. Once there, he is befriended by her charming and dangerous brother-in-law, Pete Dunham, and introduced to the underworld of British football hooliganism. Matt learns to stand his ground through a friendship that develops against the backdrop of this secret and often violent world."

The movie is about knowing the importance of when to stand your ground and when to back out. It was pretty reflective of my past and current situation as i used to always back down and retreat into the shadows when faced with a rather difficult situation. Running away was what i was only good for. Although now i learnt to stand my ground, at times i did back down like what i used to do and end up regretting my foolish decision. I guess much courage and soul-searching is needed.

Well now still awaiting for my OBK mates to come back from Thailand to go "guang ye shi" at "cow car water" haha *thats what my mom calls it* Still have lots of shopping left undone! Anyone going CNY shopping, do call me along!

--W.S a.k.a The Fox--

Nothin to do

2006-01-20T15:18:00.000-08:00

Finally here's another update as i am really really bored. Just sitting around Students' Union and waiting for 5pm for the NAPFA testing. So far things are going pretty well, rather busy recently as school just started not too long ago and projects are starting to come in together with school events. Some things to be done;

1. Chinese New Year Shopping
2. NYAA Report (Ying Shya starting to hunt me for it)
3. Spring Cleaning

School has been going great. The lecturers for this semester are pretty ok besides Biology. He is just so monotonous, could easily put us to sleep. I think my elective is the best of all! Had great fun during the practical sessions. We were suppose to raise the heart rate of the test subject. The subject would have a heart rate monitor strapped to his chest wall, like a bra. So we explored the possible options to raise heart rate, we figured out that exercise is one of the main activity. My group figured out that pain also increase heart rate. So while other groups stuck to the conventional methods such as running on the spot, jumping, treadmill. Our group chased him around the room and pulling the straps! We managed to get his heart rate up to 195 bpm whereas the others managed to hit 165 or 175 max. In the end, his chest area was all red from pulling is "bra strap"! Our group is well known by the lecturer now for being the most comical and creative group! Haha living up to the name of Innovative Poly! Well heading to get myself some ice-cream. Photos for OBK would be up soon as my computer is finally fixed.

--W.S a.k.a The Fox--

Back

2006-01-08T12:30:00.000-08:00

Yo guys i am back! Outward Bound Korea was a blast! Definitely two thumbs up. It was freezing there but the experience was worth it. For some reasons, i keep feeling hungry all the time ever since i come back from the trip. Every 10 minutes, would have the urge to grab something to eat. *yikes* Well currently waiting for the others from OBK to send me the pictures. As for my side, the pictures would be uploaded by monday or tuesday latest. Sorry guys for the delay. And yup, there's souvenirs for everyone! Updates on the OBK trip would be up soon, once i finish my NYAA reports! haha

--W.S a.k.a The Fox-- signing off

Away in Korea

2005-12-26T19:46:00.000-08:00

Hello people, i am going to be away in Korea till the 5th of January. Would be on Outward Bound Korea expedition trip. Well no time to actually do a proper entry and many thanks to those whom wanted to see me off and for the well wishes! Gotta run now! Do leave a message on the tagboard or drop me an email. See you all around

P.S: There will be souvenirs for everyone! Haha would try

Christmas is just around the corner

2005-12-21T13:26:00.000-08:00

Hurrah! Christmas just round the corner! My favorite season of the year! Well but this time round it won't be the same as the usual ones I had. This time round, it's going to be in S'pore...I couldn't go back to Hong Kong because of my upcoming Korea trip which is on the 26th, Boxing Day. At the start when I first heard about the Korea trip, I was really excited and when to sign up for it. As there were only 4 places out of the whole of NYP, participants had to go through an interview. Well I made it through but now starting to regret my choice, not because of the nature of the course but because of the promise I made to my close friends in Hong Kong. We made a pact with each other that we will all fly back to Hong Kong and spent Christmas and New Year together as all of us are scattered around the world and this is the only time where all of us are having holidays. When I signed up for the trip, this didn’t cross my mind till I was informed that I was selected. *I'm so sorry guys, I really wish to spent Christmas with you all* Well been chatting with them online, and there is just so much catching up to do. I miss the times where we would just go window shopping, all of us in winter wear and heading to a nearby cafe for hot chocolate...or times where we go hiking in winter, singing up and down the mountains, going to Mindy's house to cook pasta and create a disaster out of it...times where we go K and sing till 3am in the morning...Most of all, I miss you guys! I promise that next time I would definitely make it! Well been really busy recently, was doing Christmas shopping. Making a list and checking twice! Making sure I got something for those I care for. Half of the time I am running around town hunting for gifts! Haha spent a lot this month, damn my mom is gonna kill me! Oh and I got my Crumpler Bag!!! Hurrah! Thanks to my godbro! Well spent half of Monday hunting for candy canes, everywhere is like sold out! Damn it! Well got to get ready to go back to school for the Outward Bound Korea meeting.

Back in action

2005-12-11T23:08:00.000-08:00

Its so long since i last updated this blog, i guess there won't be much people who bothers to click on this blog anymore. Anyways was busy with exams and attachments so i get home all the time feeling really burnt out. Finally its the holidays and well many things had happened within this mere 1 month, my entire life went topsy turvy.

1.) Was my birthday! Well i would like to thank my friends for celebrating with me. But this was the day where i found out the people i regarded as friends weren't exactly my friends after all. There is this group of people whom i regarded them as really good friends, i hosted parties for them, bought drinks and i never asked them to chip in as i thought what are friends for. Even for the gifts, not everyone chipped in. And usually i am the only one who pays the most. Not that i am complaining but the depressing thing is when it was my birthday, they didn't celebrate with me, not that i expected them to do so because i did celebrate with them. But there wasn't even a call nor greeting via sms. Even when i was on msn, they were online too but none even drop me a message. Despite the warnings which fell on my deaf ears, i continued to trust them and now i ended up feeling so foolish to have done so. I guess this serves as warning to me not to trust people so easily.

2.) My hospital attachment. Had a great time working in TTSH ward 5A. A big "thank you" to all the wonderful staff there. Well as usual, the lecturer keeps complaining that my hair is long!!! Gosh why can't they just accept the fact that it's the 21st century, hair flatten down and comb to one side isn't the "in" thing anymore. In fact, it's horrendous! Well got an appraisal from two patients! Was really glad! The feeling of being appreciated is really great, though it may just be a simple "thank you" or a smile from the patients, it really makes my day. Oh and there's this really irritating students in my ward, both of them are from china *not that i discriminate against them* but one is damn bloody lazy and the other one is freaking rude! The lazy one does nothing but stand around or hide in one corner, he could even go hide in the toliet where is reeks the smell of feces. You could ask him to help you and he could just give you that empty look! I swore if i had the chance, i would dunk his head into the sharps box! As for the other one, she pisses me off because she is freaking rude. She could just come up from behind and nudge me hard on the rib area to just get my attention to help her while i was reading the case notes. I would strangle her and hung her upside down the lamp post with a drip set if i had the chance to do so. Well i am glad that its finally the holidays, not that i dread the attachment but i was pretty tired already and that's the rest i needed.

3.) Had a Lime magazine interview regarding the Poly Guide! *Ooo first time!*

4.) Went around job hunting but sadly none called back because most of the places were taken by the JC graduates and Sec school graduates...*sigh*

As for today, went out with my friends to town to hangout and shop for christmas gifts. Hmm not much luck on my side. Still thinking of what to buy for my family and friends. Got to make a list and check it twice haha.

Exams

2005-10-26T12:44:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolates: -nil-
Amt of ice cream: -nil-
Stress level: 9 *was actually at 10 yesterday*

Well cleared my biology paper today. Most of the people i asked said i am happy if i could get a C, actually a D+ would do well. (D+ is a 50% score) As for me, i only studied like two days before or wait was it 3....hmm maybe 4 haha but it was pretty last minute, the paper was ok...quite tricky at some parts. I checked and realised i made some stupid mistakes. People say that the first option is always the accurate one, well i nearly changed some of my answers to the right ones but didnt do it in the end. Was not confident enough. Feel so stupid now...grrr!!! Well whats done is done. Passing is no problem for me but how well is another issue. Got to prepare for the next paper on Friday. Wish me luck!

Just tired

2005-10-21T23:58:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolates: -nil-
Amt of ice cream: 1 strawberry sundae *thanks huimin*
Stress level: 8

Been really busy lately due to the events and impending exams, i feel like so many things are left undone. "So many things to do yet so little time" really applies to my current situation.

Well this is some of things i have done over the weeks;
-Fell asleep on the bus and missed my stop = x3
-Missed trainings for 2 weeks...feel really bad about it
-Fell and hit my knee while coming out of my bathtub = x1
-Falling asleep infront of the computer = countless

Got B for both biology and research methods test, though many would say "its good enough" or "B is very good already". I personally feel that B isn't good enough. If others could get an A, means it isn't impossible. Just hate it when people say "at least you didn't fail"......exams are so close and i feel like i don't know much. The lecturers keep mentioning about failures during the revision periods, how demoralising could they get. Just very very tired.....looking for a part time job...STILL!!! Would be difficult to find one that pays good and let me work flexible hours, want to get money to buy the items on my wishlist haha.

Wishlist;
-Crumpler sling bag
-New shoes
-New mobile phone
-Skins for my ipod mini
-New earphones for ipod mini
-Sound system for ipod mini
-New clothes
-New cover for my planner
-New wallet

Would start looking around, will start working once i cleared my exams!!! For now got to study.

2005-10-16T00:20:00.002-07:00

Finally, home!!!

2005-10-16T00:20:00.001-07:00

Mission accomplished! On our way home

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Candid shot

2005-10-16T00:19:00.001-07:00

Thinking real hard....

2005-10-16T00:19:00.000-07:00

Game of Checkers

2005-10-16T00:18:00.001-07:00

Foam party!!!

2005-10-16T00:18:00.000-07:00

Foam party!!

2005-10-16T00:17:00.001-07:00

waiting for food

2005-10-16T00:17:00.000-07:00

Dinner after social nite

2005-10-16T00:16:00.000-07:00

Our bedroom

2005-10-16T00:15:00.002-07:00

Looks damn good but sadly didnt get the chance to eat it....

2005-10-16T00:15:00.001-07:00

Look at all the cakes!

2005-10-16T00:15:00.000-07:00

Social Nite Venue

2005-10-16T00:13:00.000-07:00

Setting up social nite

2005-10-16T00:12:00.000-07:00

Money or life? haha

2005-10-16T00:11:00.001-07:00

Dinner at Pizza Hut

2005-10-16T00:11:00.000-07:00

THE PIZZA HUT AWARDS!!!

2005-10-16T00:10:00.001-07:00

Screwed up expressions haha

2005-10-16T00:10:00.000-07:00

Getting into the festive mood

2005-10-16T00:07:00.000-07:00

Heineken Commercial

2005-10-16T00:02:00.001-07:00

On our way out to the mall

2005-10-16T00:02:00.000-07:00

Lunchbreak

2005-10-16T00:01:00.000-07:00

Tired smiles...lol

2005-10-15T23:55:00.000-07:00

Tired faces....got to wake up at bloody 5+ haha

Back from poly forum

2005-10-14T23:52:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolates: -nil-
Amt of ice cream: 1 cone
Stress level: 2

I'm back from Poly Forum! It was really fun from the game masters point of view as our mission there is to conduct the games and play them as well! So mission accomplished. Have to wait for Debbie to send me the pictures and video taken during the trip. As for today, had my psychology paper. 8 mistakes made after i checked it...*sigh* didnt really had much time to study for it. I reached S'pore yesterday and had a paper today, was left with no choice but to simply burn my night away. Fell asleep while studying and waking up to realise that i forgotten what i studied in the front few chapters...-__-...anyways what's done is done so just got to focus for the impending exams.. Checked and found out it was push forward to the 26th, 28th and 29. Everything seems to be piling up on me, *ok stress level now shot up to 7*. I have my exams to prepare for, especially medical surgical theory coz i had been focusing on other things during lectures.....actually more on falling asleep in class...haha damn starting to regret now...all the "i could had and if only" starts to haunt me...this semester is totally screwed because i had been skipping too much classes already. I realised my mistake only today when i sat for my psychology paper, i used to breeze through papers but this time round i actually got stuck! I only hope that i won't fail anything this year and promise myself to work hard for the next semester. I passed my BCLS practical today! I headed to look for my lecturer as i was absent during the BCLS practical test which was held on tuesday.

*walks into her office*

Lecturer: "Yea? How can i help you?"

Me: "I need to take the BCLS test as i missed it because i was out for the Poly Forum."

"Oh ok, so you are the one who missed the test. You have any lessons for the day?"

"Nope, i am free"

"Good, i put you at the 1 pm timeslot then'

*look at my handphone and realised its 12! *

*Oh crap so soon!!! I AM NOT EVEN PREPARED YET!*

"Erm is today the last day for the test?"

"Nope, but next week would be rather full."

*gulps* "ok then i will do it today."

"Great, see you at K420 later."

Totally sian 1/2...its only an hour!!! Was busy calling up some of my friends asking them about the steps to apply. Was standing outside the lab with butterflies in my stomach. I made alot of mistakes during my first go.

" 1 and 2 and 3 and... *Crack*" my hand moved to the wrong landmark on the chest, the lecturer was looking at me and i was like *OH SHIT!!!* Thankfully i got another chance and everything was perfect. Was really nervous at the start but got the hang of it after a while. So i passed and moved on to the next room which was infant CPR. Waited there for a really long time so decided to take a peek out of the room. *Opens door and i saw WJK!!!!* the one whom always complained my hair is long. Immediately shuts the door and hope she doesn't take this room.

*door opens WJK walks* I am so doomed, first she is going to complain about my hair and next fail me because of that. I immediately held my paper up to shield my face and hair at the same time. Thank God that another lecturer walked in and WJK headed to the other end of the room to get something. I put down the paper at once and told the other lecturer that i was ready to be assessed. Cleared the infant CPR like a breeze, just when i thought WJK finally given up on telling me about my "LONG HAIR" or she failed to notice. The lecturer that assessed me was talking to her and told WJK that i was taking this test because i missed mine due to the Poly Forum.

WJK: "Oh how was the Poly Forum?"

Me: " It was great"

*praying hard that the next thing she says won't be about my hair*

"Ok, aiyo your hair so long then go for poly forum? Must cut mah or flatten down a bit, you representing NYP leh..."

*damn it! Why must she ask*

"I did gel it down a bit" *i lied!*

So there you have it, WJK still bent on making everyone looking like her. Went for a haircut as well today, not because of WJK persistant nagging but because my hair grows pretty fast. Had a really great time with Kai Way, Huimin, Jieying and Yong Siang at Far East today. Though it was just dinner at Long John Silver, but we had lots of laughs! Well would stop here now. V. drained.

Poly Forum

2005-10-05T23:59:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolates: -nil-
Amt of ice cream: 2 cones
Stress level: 4

Had only 2 lectures today, was pretty easy going. Had most of the stuff for Poly Forum 0'5 ready. Went down to AMK central to get some of the stuff that we lacked. The meeting at the Student Affairs office was a blast, haha sounds weird huh, we had lots of laughs thanks to our very own Fadhli who was entertaining us throughout the whole meeting. It really lighten the mood. We thought of really good stuff to add to the games and make it more interesting, haha i can't wait for the day to come. After the meeting Karen, Debbie and i went down to IKEA to get stuff for the event. Managed to get almost all the things needed. We headed to The Padi Field, opposite IKEA for dinner. We chatted, laughed and poke fun at each other, well mostly poked fun at Debbie haha and we discussed what games to bring during the Poly Forum so we can play during our free time. Haha the food was really good!!! Well am really glad that most of the things are settled, just a few adjustments to be made and we will be ready. Friday would be our last meeting before setting off to Malaysia on Tuesday. Well very tired today, skipped the past 2 trainings...feeling really bad now, must resume once Poly Forum is over...

Monday once again

2005-10-03T09:30:00.000-07:00

Time: 9:19am
Amt of chocolates: -nil-
Amt of ice cream: -nil-
Stress level: 4

Survived the barrage of tests last week, so much easier to breathe now. Currently sitting infront of the computer in Students Union blogging. Its 9 in the morning!!! Lecture was at 8am!!! Woke up at bloody 6:45am to come down to school for an hour of lecture and my next class is at 1pm!!! plus its a monday!!! Still thought i could sleep in today but my lecturer has to go for his re-service, so his lecture on friday has to be cancelled and change to another day. Of all the days to choose and it has to be on a monday!!!

Time: 10:13am
Amt of chocolates: -nil-
Amt of ice cream: -nil-
Stress level: 5 *increasing due to boredom and just realised that i have a debate tomorrow*

V.bored now...so took a few of these "tests"

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Hmm how true is it??? haha anyways got a french name from the blogthings thingy haha *damn i am bored!!!* Well this is called self entertaining haha

Your French Name is:

Laurent Bonnefoix

What's" Your French Name?

LAURENT BONNEFOIX! *my tongue got tied while trying to say this one fast* haha

Passed my test

2005-09-27T14:30:00.000-07:00

Time: 2:16pm
Amt of chocolates: -nil-
Amt of ice cream: -nil-
Stress level: 6

I PASSED! Phew! What a relief. I thought i was going to fail, made a lot of mistakes during my assessment. I was told yesterday that not many students were able to pass the assessment. I went around asking how is it, the respond was, "i failed". For the first time that much fear gripped me. Was mugging the bloody whole night, worried that everything would come out *which isnt possible*. It was after training and was so tired. Fell asleep with my face in the book, only waking up at 2 plus with a very bad leg cramp...-__-...

Today, walked it into the lab. Forgotten to get my pen as was pretty nervous, and the BITCH WONG JIEK HWEE has to spoil my whole day.

To my lecturer assessing me, " Sorry i forgotten to get my pen in, is it ok if i go get it now?"

Lecturer: "Sure go ahead"

BITCH W.J.K : " NO PEN THEN DON'T COME TO EXAM"

(BITCH made this comment as i was making my way out to my bag to get my pen)

And that wasn't over, when i come back

BITCH: "YOUR HAIR IS VERY LONG, STILL COME TO EXAM"

"Whatever" *was so pissed but couldn't be bothered with her*

She's a BITCH, just because her hair is way shorter than mine, she complains that my hair is long. My hair is the length of those in the pictures on my previous post. She expects everyone's hair to be combed to the side, flatten down and gel it in that position. She's looks like Chairman Mao, just with a bit more hair thats all. Well glad that i passed though i know i made quite a few mistakes and stumbled a bit here and there. Distinction seems pretty far off from here, got to work hard for tomorrow's theory paper.

Time: 11:00
Amt of chocolate: -nil-
Amt of ice cream: 2 cones *one for the day, one to reward myself*

...Got to study, no time to blog...*must concentrate*...

Too lazy to update

2005-09-22T23:30:00.000-07:00

Time: 11.30pm

..........Too lazy to update.........

2nd last day of work

2005-09-22T19:07:00.000-07:00

Time: 7.04pm
Amt of chocolates: Just a few pieces
Amt of ice cream: -nil-
Stress Level: 2 *attachment approaching an end*

Just finished the meeting about the Poly Forum not too long ago. And it is confirmed that there won't be any theme on social night. Apparently NP doesn't want Halloween theme as it has some religious connotations which i think it's bullshit. *Halloween would be such a good idea but sadly NP just do not know what fun is, pity such people* I am so proud of myself today! Why? Because wasn't late for work today! Woohoo! First time punctual out of *erm how many days was it* oh yea 7 days! Told myself after being caught by Ward Sister that i would not be late for the last 2 days. There's still another day more to go. As for work today, was suprised to see one of the patient had gone into a coma state. He used to be able to walk about on his own, very independent. Never would i expect him to be reduced in such state as he didnt deteriorate progressively but suddenly. It really shows how fragile life is. Arrh really hungry now...shall continue later

Late

2005-09-21T23:38:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolates: 1 bar of Marks and Spencer Dark Chocolate *munching on it now*
Amt of ice cream: -nil-
Stress level: 4 *was late for work*

Here i am, after training, munching on this heavenly bar. Today seemed like crap initally but figured out that it wasn't that bad after all, looking back at it, it could had been a lot worse. Was late for work today, well you guys would had expected it, BUT this time it's different.

*me rushing into the nurses station*

Me asking the ward clerk : "Morning, sorry i am late". *searches frantically for the attendence book*

Ward Clerk: "......" *just kept silent*

"Any idea where the attendence book is?"

"......" *silence once again*

Ward Sister: *from the background* "The book is with me"

*Oh shit!!!* *turns around to see Sister standing there* "Oh hi sister!" *trying my very best to put up a smile*

"You are late"

"Yeeap, sorry i was late, got caught in the jam"

Phew! She bought the reason and didnt reprimand me but still i got to sign in at the exact timing which i arrived. Work was once again quite relaxed, so i followed the doctors' rounds as i wasn't occupied with anything. Had asked the nurse clinician something about VRE (Vancomycin-resistant Enterococci)

Me: "I understand that VRE is spread by direct contact, what about indirect contact?"

Clinician: "Tell me what do u know about direct contact transmission?"

*thought for a while as there might be hidden answers, but thought it was ridiculous*

"Erm...it is spread through contact"

*DUH!!! any idiot will know that*

*he gives me the -__- look*

"Ok...what i meant was examples of how is it spread"

*chey! be more specific*

Well felt that i learnt alot today *not that i didnt learn anything during the past few days*. Felt that my attachment is coming to a end soon so have to seize every chance to learn more from now on. Managed to hitch a ride on the ambulance to the main block at TTSH for lunch, haha it was so cool as i never got on a ambulance before *i feel like a frog in a well*
As for training today, was really a killer! 600m x 6 and 1200m x 3. Felt a strain in my shin so i missed out on two rounds of 600m. Went out with Merlene for dinner as the other track members were playing soccer and both of us have to work tomorrow. Had a nice chat with her, talked about our different experience in the ward. The ward is like a stage, it has moments of laughter, sorrow, fustration and many more. That makes working in the hospital all the more interesting =) *crap! finished my chocolate bar already* Gonna go update my expenditure book now.....*pen is out of ink...damn!...no visible functional pen insight...too lazy to get one...will update next day then*

Great run!

2005-09-19T23:29:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolate: -nil- *i guess i am losing the sugar rush*
Amt of ice cream: -nil-
Stress level: 4 *must study*

Monday once again, how i hate mondays. Was comfortably sleeping soundly and the dreaded alarm just have to ring...Grr!!! MONDAYS! TOTALLY SUXS!!! Was nearly late for work due to my reluctance to wake up and the morning jam on the highway. Once again cursing and swearing while i was on the car haha well cant help it. Thankfully i reached the ward on the dot, 8am haha, i rushed to the tea room to put down my bag and get ready. As i was heading there, i kept hoping that *no one sees me, no one sees me*. Well work was good, got to do some procedures at least. Training was great as i did my personal best timing for 2.4KM, 8.39!!! WOOHOO!!! And congrats to those who were doing it as well, all of us gave it our best and the timing was good! Keep up the good job guys! Gonna have to stop here...would blog little less today as not much happened. Haha

2005-09-19T08:21:00.000-07:00

Cousins, Sibs and i at KBOX

KTV!

2005-09-18T23:59:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolate: -nil-
Amt of ice cream: -nil-
Stress level: 4 !!!

Slept till 11+...man that feels good! Haha my cousins and i agreed yesterday night that we would go Kbox today! We were suppose to meet at Cineleisure at 2pm, but due to me waking up late and taking a long time to prepare and my siblings having to go to tution and only be done at 1:30pm caused us to be slightly late. So we only reached there at 3, my cousins went ahead. We sang all the way from 3pm to 7:30pm. Haha voice a bit raspy now. Had a really great time singing, chatting, imitating so big stars and laughing. Went out with parents for dinner, its really rare that my family could actually be all present for a meal. Just flipped through my planner and found how soon my tests are!!! Well got to start studying, *sigh* back to work again tomorrow...how i wish everyday is a saturday...

Long charitable day

2005-09-17T23:59:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolates: 5 pieces of Ferrero Rocher
Amt of ice cream: -nil-
Stress level: 6 *bloody student mentoring committee*
Alcohol comsumption: moderate *had a few drinks with dad ~cheers!~

The silence of my room was broken by my alarm! Its 0645 in the morning, tried to get hold of my mobile phone but was out of my reach. Let it rang for a bit longer before giving up and finally wake up to go shut it off. I have to be in school by 0745 for a health fair organised for the elderly by SHS student mentors programme. I wouldnt had mind going IF i was informed about this event EARLY! I only got to know about this the day before and now i have to wake up so bloody early on saturday! Took my whole box of 120 lanterns with me to school as i need it for the Ren Ci Mid Autumn celebration later on in the day. Was slightly late but who cares, anyways we all assembled at level 3 reception counter as we await for our visitors to arrive. While we were there, the fat ass Gerard he kept emphasising the point that we are crazy to wake up at and be here at 8am for this event. Yea if you say its crazy, then why make this event on a saturday morning in the first place?! IMBECILE, fats must be whats filling up that empty skull of yours! While i was waiting, my group and i saw some student mentors busy sucking up to seniors...*sigh* what a sad bunch of MORONS!!! To think they have to do that just to be picked for the next student mentor camp. Pathetic, simply pathetic!!! If i have to do that to be picked for the next camp, i rather not go! It would just be an insult to myself, i wont want to be as foolish as some of my coursemates. I pity them for their stupidity. Anyways, the whole event was well, out of 10. I think it only deserves a 5, just because it was successful but not marvellous. For the allied health and those doing the screening and stuff, they do deserve compliments. For the marshalls, i have a particular group to pin point at. That would be group 5, why? because this IC for the group has bloody some problems in reading or understanding the programme list given to him.

Ibnu: "Erm...i believe that our group is suppose to be in this room first."

*that bastard* : "Oh really?"

*he took a look at the programme list*

"But theres people (the group that he is bringing) in there already" and with that he just left us and our elderly visitors standing at the small corridor waiting.

Why if i had my chance i would drive that bastard face into the wall, making sure it is a bloody pulp before dunking that face into a bucket of concentrated acid! We have to keep changing our order of the events because of that bloody screw up in the beginning. The event ended with all of us tired and helping to pack up. The elderly were really nice, they thanked us, their smiles are good enough to brighten up my day. Had quite a good time in ermm...telling Ibnu facts about himself whahaha! Joseph makes a good tag team man! Headed to the S.A.O after that to meet Ying Shya for the mid autumn celebration. It is held at Ren Ci hospital in hougang area, near IMH. The ward setting is very different from the wards that i worked in, its so much bigger but the amount of staff there is really too little. So the quality of care is of course affected. Well we met quite a few interesting individuals, we helped to feed them and later brought them down to watch performace and celebrated mid-autumn festival. All of them were on wheelchairs, we attach a lantern to their wheelchair and took them out for a little stroll. We were chatting, carrying lanterns and of course looking at the full moon. Its really wonderful to see the elderly have such a great time but i have to leave early as i am celebrating my dad's birthday too! My whole family is there inculding my relatives. Had a barbeque, chatted with my cousins whom i have not really seen for awhile. Brought the younger ones for a stroll with lanterns. Was good family fun! Haha had a few drinks with my family after my relatives left, cold sake! haha Cheers to my beloved Dad, may his business prosper and always stay healthy!

Thanks huimin

2005-09-15T23:58:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolates: 1 bar of snickers
Amt of ice cream: 1 cone
Stress level: 5!!! *impending tests!!!*

Ok so that was Huimin guest starring at my blog with all of her "zi lian" pics as usual. Haha she's out to destroy me!!! wahaha. Anyways today was pretty good, had lots of stuff to do so time passed rather quickly...really tired now so gonna stop here. Gdnite everyone

Thanks to Huimin for the special appearance.

An infiltration!!!

2005-09-15T09:26:00.000-07:00

Commander: "Ahhhh!!! Wei Siang's blog is under attack!!"

Commander: "Infiltration detected!!!"

Commander: "Rise your hand up and show yourself who ever you are!!!"

Commander"I give you three seconds!!"

"Ten.."

"Nine.."

Soldier:''Ehem! Sir.. You said three seconds"

Commander: "Oh... Is it.. "

Suddenly a figure step out and sashay towards the entire army. A lady walked out and strike a pose.

All the soldiers start to have fits and drop dead.

It is Huimin!!! The ultimate warfare!! Muahahaha! All hail the queen!!

Muahahaha!

Ok.. I know that was seriously lame.. But too bad!! Wei Siang got me, a lameo as his bitch! Muahahaha!

Due to my Kawaii-ness and extreme cold jokes, i had to honour of being the first person to guest start on my bitch's blog. (If i wasn't the first i would have strangled him with my bare hands)

I get the feeling that when i am guest starring on people's blog, i become extremely lame. Is it me or what? Mmm.. But since lame is the lastest trend, so no harm right?

Ok.. I shall start by saying this Joke that i heard from my friend. It sounds a bit racist la.. So please take this with a pinch of salt my fellow Singaporeans. I dun wanna get sued!

Here goes..

One day, three friends got together to take a flight to Maldives for a holiday together. One is a chinese, another a malay and lastly a Indian. When they board the flight, all was fine and they chatted merrily among each other.

Suddenly! The Plane Shook!! And the engine stalled! The pilot walk towards them holding a parachute and said :" I am sorry dear gentlemen. The plane can not be saved and i shall take the only parachute cause i wan to be a waorld famous pilot one day. Sorry." With that he leap out of the plane.

The three friends panicked and start to pray to their gods.

The chinese guy said: "Save me oh merciful Buddha". He jumped out of the plane and landed on a hay stack and survived.

The malay guy said: "Save me Allah!". He jumped out of the plane and landed in a sea and was saved by a passing ship.

The Indian guy also prayed to his god before jumping off. But in the end, he died! When the police found him, they made a interesting discovery. The indian man was hairless all over.They could not find a single strand of hair on him!
Do you know what happen?

Guess...

Give you 3 secs..

1...

2...

3..

The indian went jumping off the plane when he was praying, he did not pronounced he words properly.. He actually wanted to speak in Tamil but then he gan cheong so he prayed in English: "Oh lord! Shave me! Shave Me"

Get it??

Muahahahaahahah!

Sorry again that this joke sound racist. But i cant help it la.. Damn funny lo! Kekekex.

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Ok.. Be more serious.
...

...

...

Cant la!! I damn crap de!! Can not be serious!

Oh ya.. You know what.. People out there.. never follow Wei Siang's foot steps by asking me along to see you get your hair cut. Especially when i am armed with a Camera Phone.

*Sniggers*

The end result will be this:

I guess Wei Siang's reputation have just been ruined by me. That is what he gets when i start guest starring on his blog. Muahaha!

But then thinking again.. He can actually edit this post horx..

Bitch.. You wouldn't do that right?? *Flutter Eyelashes*

Cause if you do, i will kill you *Gives a sweet sickly smile*

Now that i have done creating havoc in your blog, i shall say something nice about you =]

Wei Siang is m bitch who is a sadistic that talks to me about removing people's fingernails by shoving a toothpick between their finger and the finger nails and levering it off. But that is not all worx!! You have to first dip the fingernail-less hands in to salt water and take out before putting it in Acid..

Isn't that sweet of him? Teehee.

Ookokokokok.. That is not helping him much io his image. Kekex.

*Clears Throat*

Wei Siang is a great friend to have when you are feeling down and needs some cheering up. I have look towards him for advice and he often gives me great advice that helps me solve my problem. A sugar freak who eats alot of ice cream and chocolates. I am often dragged along to go with him to get these sinful desserts that create a bigger waistline. Diet plans will never work around him.

He is currently single and a good looker. So any girls that are interested in him please chiong to him and offer him a hand in marriage. Although i strongly suspect that he has SM tendencies, i shall over look the fact and portray him as a Sunshine guy! Oh ya.. He will keep whining to you about how big his thighs are...Be prepared got that ya?
Nah.. A picture of him.. In his new hairstyle

Come on all the girls!! Drool your heart out!! Muahaha..

okokz.. I shall end this post with us, the bitches of SU!!

Dun mess with us!

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Toodles!

Huimin was here

Tired

2005-09-14T23:20:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolates: -nil-
Amt of ice cream: -nil-
Stress level: 3 *lecturer is gonna be at my ward tomorrow*

Its 10:51pm, just got home not too long ago from training. Really tired, was suppose to do 600m 10 times under 2mins but ended up doing 7 instead as was really drained. Was pretty glad with my performance as i managed to keep all of them under 2mins and adhere to the rest time given haha. Cant believe i survived the day without chocolates and ice cream!!! Something just isnt right!!! Work wasnt as boring as the past 2 days as i managed to perform a simple wound dressing, do a hypocount, gave insulin jab and fed patient through naso-gastric tube which ended up in a mess, the medicine was too thick and has crushed pills so it was stuck. I tried to force it in with a plunger and it "exploded" on me!!!

*happily feeding the patient, pours medicine into the 50mls syringe*

me: "hey its stuck yea?"

Zul: "yea, try lifting the syringe higher" (using the force of gravity)

*lifts syringe higher*

"its still stuck", *takes the plunger* "maybe this would work"

"......" *he has never came across such situation before*

*forcing the plunger down*

"damn it, has alot of resistance"

*with all my might, i pushed it all the way down and............*SPLAT!!!!!*

"OH CRAP!!!" *the tube was disconnected from the syringe due to my mammoth strength*

fren: "wait wait i go get tissue!"

*doctors came in*

"OH NO!!!" *frantically connects the tube back and pretend to feed*

*doctors go on about their rounds while my fren just kept quiet and look at me*

*bloody tube got stuck AGAIN* this time i am not gonna try the same "stunt" infront of the doctors...

*they were done and left*

"ok i am gonna try it again"

*fingers crossed*

*pushes the plunger* "YES!!! it all went in"

Well so we ended up cleaning up the patient, changing the clothes and the protective sheet. Haha all because of me!!! ARRGGH!!!! it was all over my uniform...so pai seh when i walked into the nurses station...haha they must be thinking why this student so messy, or why never wear the protective gown...so sad...another incident was when i am doing a simple dressing, sterile gloves wasnt needed but one of my frens was saying that i should get the gloves but based on what i learnt, we have to assess the condition of the wound and decide. So it was simple dressing, no sterile gloves needed. In the end i got the gloves because my fren just kept giving me "THE LOOK" haha but in the end i got the smaller size gloves *never knew my hand was that big* so i spent most of my time trying to squeeze my hand into the small size gloves with the student nurses and one staff looking at me. Was so damn embarrassing!!! and i didnt come to the realization that my hands were too big until one of the student mention it!!! Damn what was i thinking...well its pretty late, gonna go wash up and sleep, hoping that i wont commit so many blunders tomorrow as our lecturer is going to be down at our ward...means no more "eating snake" wahaha...

2nd day of work

2005-09-13T23:09:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolates: 1 bar of kinder bueno
Amt of ice cream: 1 cone
Stress level: 0 (v.good)

2nd day of work, there is nothing much to do as the staff there had almost or everything done even before we start our shift at 8. I really wonder how can i make it through 2 weeks, well for now it is just 8 days more but it would be tests and ICAs after attachment. Well haha put that aside for now, still a bit too early to think about it. Was late for work today, caught in a jam, haha was panicking in the car, cursing and swearing quietly at those vehicles cutting in and out of their lanes.

I thought to myself, "this is it, sister is gonna give me hell of a scolding for being late and my grades would be affected"

I rushed straight into the tea room with *oh shit, oh shit* running through my thoughts constantly. Place down my bag, got my pens out, name tag, ruler and paper. Then the door opened...

*oh crap, could it be the ward sister?*

*ward clerk enters*

*a huge sigh of relief*

Ward Clerk: "Hey, why did you come in late?"

*Crap!!! why must she ask this question!!!*

"ermm...i was caught in a jam so yea...thats why i am slightly late" (was late by 5mins ONLY)

"oh ok, i left a gap for you in the attendence book before drawing a line, just sign in at 0755 but don't tell sister" (drawing a line indicates that there is no more signing in for that particular shift)

"Thank u thank u!!!!" *haha words could never express my gratitude*

And thank God that sister only came in at around 9 haha, so managed to escape this time round, but really have to wake up earlier the next day to avoid such error. Once again, i looked at the patients and this feeling of hopelessness overwhelms me. I used to look at the patients in the past few wards i been to and thought to myself, "you would be able to get well one day" but this hope that i carry along does not seem to apply in the current ward i am in. Who am i kidding, till now there isnt a treatment for them. Though at times i look at them, false hope engulfs me, how i wish i could say to them that " you will get well soon" or " take the medication and you would be able to recover". Some cases are really sad too, they do not deserve it but yet...there this patient *whom i cant name and wont name and even if i do, you all would have no idea who it is* she got the virus from her boyfriend, she isnt married and has 2 children. Her first child was with her boyfriend, when she was pregnant, she had hope that they would get married but alas he left her and somehow ended up behind the bars. Her life, ruined but thankfully her two kids are HIV -ve. Currently her children are with another family, she miss them greatly and cried *as told by the staff to me*. The family brought her children to visit her, knowing that they are well and happy, she was very much at peace. I thought if i were in her position, i would be stepping out of the mortal world anytime. Questions such as, how would my children grow up to be, how should i prepare them incase if i were to die early. I cant help but feel really sorry for her, she's a nice lady but going through hell, probably didnt even know what hit her in the first place. I could only pray that God would have mercy on them...

First day at work

2005-09-12T23:58:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolates: 1 packet of Van Houten
Amt of ice cream: -nil- *hmm been missing out on ice cream lately*
Stress level: 2

Woke up early, its attachment once again. Its really annoying as we are jumping in and out of school. Two weeks of school then two weeks of attachment, and it would be back to school again. My posting this time is at CDC, communicable disease centre *sounds pretty scary huh?* Well wait till you all know the ward that i am working in, haha i bet some might keep a distance from me after knowing it. I am in a HIV ward. Work was pretty easy going in there as there is only 10 patients and enough staff to cover the workload. *thats excluding the students* I used to be really afraid of such patients, there is always this fear that i might get infected if i wasn't cautious enough. As we all know, HIV has no cure yet, so it is like a death sentence, its only a matter of time. I was shocked to see some patients actually got HIV, its seem pretty unlikely judging from their appearance. Cheerful and bubbly uncles...i cant help but feel really sorry for them, i admire their strength, despite having the knowledge of their condition, they could still remain cheerful. Its really something no ordinary people could possibly achieve. I guess if i were in their position, i could never do that knowing about my impending doom. Well the staff there are really nice, it was only the first day and they taught us quite alot. Kinda late, gotta stop and hit the sack....

Sept 11

2005-09-11T23:40:00.000-07:00

Take a moment of silence today, for the fallen.
The heroes, the victims and their loved ones.

Amt of chocolates: 1 bar of Marks and Spencer Bubbly Milk
Amt of ice cream: -Nil-
Stress level: 3 *oh no!!! attachment tomorrow*

If it isnt another on of those sunday mornings, waking up late without any worries or cares, lazing around in bed till the noise made by siblings becomes intolerable. Spent the entire morning slacking around the house, then prepared for work in the afternoon. Got this job offer to clean up someone's place before they rent it out. It wasn't tough at all as i am quite used to doing household chores. The place is kinda flithy as it has been left vacant for 5 years. But the pay for this job is quite good, 10 bucks an hour. So got my pail and rag, started off with the cupboards in the kitchen, the outer surface of the cupboard is rather badly stained by the effects of oil. Tried my best to get most of it off but not 100%. The inside of the cupboard was a horror, cockroach eggs were all over with lizard droppings! And its not only a few, but lots!!!

Owner: "Do me a favor, remove everything from the cupboard so i could decide which one to keep and to throw".

Me: "Sure!"

*opens cupboard and saw all the shit that was in there*

"Remove all the things in there right??" *hoping that he will say no, knowing its impossible*

"Yeap, all of them. So you will be able to clean the inside of the cupboard."

*Shit!!! Literally shit!!!* *gulpz* "ok, will get it done right away"

Haha i never knew what horrors await me as i opened each cupboard which had been left untouched for 5 years. I was so glad when i was done with the kitchen, so proud of the fridge i cleaned haha it looks new again!!! Well proceeded to mop the floor and thats the end of my job for the day, paid in solid cold hard cash! Woohoo! haha. I headed down to town after to find for a more permanent part-time job, theres a few offers but have to think about it.

Working = No weekends!!!

Well it's not like i have much to do on weekends, but what if my friends want to hangout...hmm i guess i should go find those that are more on own time own target sort. Stuck now, need time to think, please let me know if anyone has good lobang!!! haha cheers!

Work

2005-09-10T23:59:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolates: Lots!!!
Amt of ice cream: -Nil-
Stress level: 0 *its a saturday!*

Relaxing, the perfect word to describe my day. Its a saturday, i get to wake up late without feeling guilty. Spent the whole morning slacking, the weather was so freaking warm. I am so tempted to buy World of Warcraft, seems like a pretty interesting game but quite heavy on the price and the commitment to it. Well went out to meet my friend at 4:30pm at Esplanade, we went to try out Max Brenner Chocolate Bar. It was really really good, the place has a pretty nice layout and they have pretty good stuff. Especially the Fondue and the Suckao drink, it's so SINFUL! but haha i'm lovin it. Haha i seriously won't mind working there even if the pay sucked, its the chocolates that attracts me! Watched the movie "The longest Yard" haha it was hilarious, especially the cheerleading "girls". Was a relaxed day, though spent a bit too much as i am suppose to be on a bu...budd....grr!!! *hate that word* BUDGET!!! signing off....

Recce Trip

2005-09-08T23:51:00.000-07:00

Time: 11:51pm
Amt of chocolate: *cant tell...ate quite a few chocolate cakes @ buffet*
Amt of ice cream: nil
Stress level: 5 *damn the NP S.A.O*

Thursday is the day i dread most, its the longest day of the week. All the way from 11am to 7pm, but for today i was rendered immunity from the torture with an EXCUSE LETTER. Had to wake up early today to make my way down to NP to gather before heading up to the resort in JB. There was a heavy jam at the expressway, vehicles cutting in and out of lanes, annoying idiots who slow down to look at the number plates of vehicles that was involved in an accident. It was so annoying, why couldn't they just give way to each other rather than trying to squeeze into tiny opening between vehicles? Won't that make things worse, both parties would have trouble moving...brainless oafs!!! And to those who bloody slow down to get numbers from vehicles which are involved in an accident. First of all, if it was slowing down to help the people who are involved, i have nothing to say. But u MORONS slow down to get numbers and not helping them, that's totally...i can't even find a word to describe you people...how i wish none of you would actually strike lottery but instead lose all of your fortunes. Secondly, how could use others plight for your own personal gains...u bunch of SELFISH IMBECILIC MORONIC SCUMBS-OF-THE-CENTURY!!! Well back to where i was, all of us were complaining about the traffic when we met up and on the way to JB. It was the topic of the day! The resort looked good, it was spacious and for a malaysia establishment, it was pretty impressive. No offence but i thought it would be a pretty old resort and slightly rundown. We went around looking at the hotel rooms, not bad. Haha i wish we could get a suite...*dreaming dreaming*--->*droolz*...back to focus, we headed to one of the discussion rooms and it was larger than we expected it to be. This means that we are not limited by space for ice breaking games. *Good news* Next was the recreation centre, they have squash, bowling, pool and snooker. All of them are at good price, haha going to be hanging around that area during my free time *hopefully we have FREE time* The area for social nite is prefect, though there are some tables behind the stage but that could be arranged. The other discussion rooms are suitable for games so once again there is no problem with space. Everything seemed perfect, i thought the entertainment part would work out great but NOOOOOO!!! because one NP staff was saying that our theme isnt such a good idea. Heres the conversation i overheard between Karen and the NP staff. (it is not exact but roughly there)

Karen: So for the social nite, the halloween theme would do nicely at the dining area.

NP staff: Actually i think halloween won't be such a good idea.

*Karen with the 'sian' look*

*said something about race or some religion thing* "we should do something like lanterns"

*with the sian 1/2 looks* "won't lanterns be a bit too chinese style? What bout the other races, we thought of doing halloween so it would be fair to everyone"

"we can do lanterns...like chinese make their lanterns and malays make theirs...."

*with the very very sian look already*

I was also having the sian 1/2 look...what lanterns?! what nonsense! is lanterns even a theme to start with in a first place? It would all turn out to be like mooncake festival, so his idea is for all of us to dress up as "Chang Er" or "Yu Tu" *jade rabbit*??!!! and our dinner for that night would be mooncakes, mooncakes and even more mooncakes!!!!To begin with, other races might not celebrate with a lantern like we do, and lantern as a theme is just...*words can never express my fustration* I even heard that we might have to change some of our games. Like what Karen said to me, they seem to have a idea of what they want. So our opinions have to be something they want to hear, and that really defeats the purpose of asking us to brainstorm for ideas, they might as well do everything themselves. So freaking annoyed with that staff...why if only i.....never mind....We had lunch shortly after visiting most of the areas of concern, the buffet looks good but actually the main courses are just ok...salads are hmm ok as well and desserts was good. I got a box of mooncakes, heard that they were good and it was selling at quite a reasonable price so yup...got 1...the spa suite looks awesome...so does the price....awesomely expensive haha...well that concludes the end of recce trip, and i was knocked out on the way back...well i guess i would have to show the video to debbie and jackson...got to start working on a new theme...*sigh*

Relieved

2005-09-05T23:45:00.000-07:00

Time: 11:45pm
Amt of chocolates: 1 packet
Amt of ice cream: 1 cone
Stress level: 1

Finally the presentation for psychology is over!!! My group only spent 7 hours or so on this project which is 45% of our semester exams and our grades were ranged from a B+ to A-...hmm could had gotten a little higher if we elaborated on certain points. Haha our role-play was so impromptu!!! I was acting to be someone who is deprived of sleep...haha wasnt too difficult as i was kinda tired, perfect role haha...well so it one down and two more to go...one for research methods which is totally a useless module and the other is my 'end of life' debate...well have to score for this one and achieve my targeted results for this semester. Haha my group members were like 'THANK GOD GRACE ISNT IN OUR GROUP!!!' haha i was thankful too...with her around, she would be nothing but a stumbling block...well today is monday so it monday blues once again...long tiring day...lab was just practise on intravenous therapy...been there done that haha...the only thing that worries me is my scheduling of drips...i totally suck at it!!! *must practise more*...been noticing that i have been spending too much recently haha...wanna go get a part-time job...haha coz feel bad always asking parents for cash...so yea currently on the lookout...haha anyone with any 'lobang' do tag me!!! haha cheers!

2005-09-05T10:25:00.000-07:00

Group pic

2005-09-05T10:24:00.000-07:00

Impossible feats being attemped!!!

2005-09-05T10:21:00.000-07:00

In agony!!!!

2005-09-05T10:19:00.000-07:00

Mooning infront of the cam haha

V. Tired

2005-09-04T23:45:00.000-07:00

Time: 11:45pm
Amt of chocolates: 1 kinder bueno
Amt of ice cream: Had a 'red, blue and white' at swensens
Stress level: 3 (working on my psychology ICA now and dozing off at times)

Been rather busy the past few days and well finally in my room, all settled down, working on my project. I would be heading up to malaysia with Karen for the sofitel recce, haha get to skip the longest day of the week *or at least half of it* haha...well the chalet was really fun! Though it ended today...i am starting to miss it already as we all had a really good time there. We played games, drank a bit, played somemore, drank again, continue playing, drank once again and chatted till we all got knocked out one by one haha. Twister was the best game! haha with all of us high on alcohol, we were all in a big tangle during the game. Impossible looking positions, obscene ones...you name them, we got them haha...well can't write much for this entry, have to continue working on my psychology project...

2005-09-04T10:54:00.000-07:00

Not to mention...painfully obscene!!! haha

2005-09-04T10:53:00.000-07:00

Starting to get complicated!

2005-09-04T10:52:00.001-07:00

Things are starting to get messy

2005-09-04T10:52:00.000-07:00

Everyone still hanging in there....was it right hand blue?? haha

2005-09-04T10:51:00.001-07:00

Still simple....not too tough

2005-09-04T10:51:00.000-07:00

Beginning of a game

2005-09-04T10:50:00.000-07:00

Merlene...simply HIGH! haha

2005-09-04T10:49:00.001-07:00

Almost out...

2005-09-04T10:49:00.000-07:00

John's heavy ass on my shoulder

2005-09-04T10:48:00.000-07:00

THIS IS SO WRONG!

2005-09-04T10:47:00.001-07:00

Look at those asses!

2005-09-04T10:47:00.000-07:00

Hmm prospect of a breakdancer haha

2005-09-04T10:46:00.000-07:00

Whats he looking at? haha

2005-09-04T10:45:00.000-07:00

Track gathering 0'5

2005-09-04T10:44:00.000-07:00

JUST high!!!!!

2005-09-04T10:43:00.001-07:00

Last 2 man in the game

2005-09-04T10:43:00.000-07:00

TWISTER!!!!!

2005-09-04T10:40:00.001-07:00

All high on alcohol!!!

2005-09-04T10:40:00.000-07:00

Chalet @ Pasir Ris

First day of term break

2005-08-29T23:30:00.000-07:00

Time: 11:20pm
Amt of chocolates: 0
Amt of ice cream: 0
Stress level: 0 (perfect)
Pain score: 3 *felt slightly better after applying some cream to sunburnt area*

First day of term break...was really relaxing as i get to wake up late. Nothing much happened today, just went out for lunch with mom as i don't have meals with my family as often as before...well stayed at home after that and played Warcraft 3 DOTA...i have not touched it for a while so skills are kinda rusty haha...went for training today, Sam, Firdaus and i were kinda badly sunburnt...we all were like 'HEY!' followed by a *SMACK* on the back!!! haha and throughout the whole training we were finding chance to smack each other on the back...*bunch of sadists in action* haha well training was ok...not too tough as we had a run yestertday...well kinda tired now...gonna hit the sack soon...

Burnt!!!

2005-08-28T22:00:00.000-07:00

Time:8.49pm
Amt of chocolates: 1
Amt of ice cream: 0
Stress level: 0 (in a v good mood today)
Pain score: 4 (got sunburnt on back!!!)

Woke up at 5:30am for the New Balance Real Run...saw that i had 2 messages, one from Debbie and the other from Wee Chung...and i had a gut feeling it is something not good, and BINGO! i was right...both of them arent able to make it...fell ill...anyways i was so freaking tired haha was a little late in meeting Kevin at the train station and the track team who was already there...the queue for the shuttle bus into Sentosa is really long...so we tired getting cabs but they didnt want to pick us as there is a major jam at the gateway due to heavy traffic going into Sentosa...so we ended up walking in like what most of the participants did...massive crowd of people haha...the DJs sucked!!! they are crappy and totally lame with bad taste in hairstyle for one of them haha...well the race started, was a huge stampede! I had to weave in and out to overtake others, was running and picking up at a steady and comfortable pace. I thought it would be that smooth sailing all the way but was i wrong, once we reached the beach everyone slowed down because running on sand and solid ground is so much more difficult...was so demoralised as i started to grew tired, kept sinking into the sand...bloody annoying haha...well after that we took the forest trail, the officials were saying 'its ending, its ending' when actually we still have quite a bit of distance to cover...the trail seems forever, just cant see the finishing line...In the end i managed to get somewhere in the middle...well we went to Sunset Bay, some played beach soccer, some went for a dip and some just slept haha got sunburnt!!!!! I look like a lobster now...am glowing red haha but was fun by the beach, just relax and enjoy the sun! v.tired now haha gonna go take a rest

Simple....

2005-08-26T12:47:00.000-07:00

Time: 12.47pm
Amt of chocolates: 0 (hmm thinking of getting one soon)
Amt of ice cream : 0
Stress level: 0 (complete relax mode, just awaiting the results of our proposal)

Its friday! T.G.I.F!!! I only had one lesson for the day, from 10am to 11am...not practical, not clinical lab and it isnt a tutorial...Its a lecture...did not feel like waking up today for lesson, but sadly i didnt pass my admin card to my course mates...well now currently slacking around in SU once again and listening to Debbie and Jackson being LOUD as usual haha...had not taken lunch yet...i'm straving...gonna go grab a bite!

Time: 2:30am
Amt of chocolates: 0
Amt of ice cream: 2 cones (must try to cut down)
Stress level: 3 (mom called and started to complain bout me staying out too late)

Just got home not too long ago, showered and settled down. Was at town today with Debbie for dinner at cafe cartel. The service there sucks! We waited for 45mins for the chickent cutlet which was suprisingly huge but tasteless! Haha we met Ernest as well, he helped Debbie on the cutlet. After which was hanging around town area, crapping and walking about aimlessly...haha calling and messaging Jackson every now and then on the updated location. Jackson ran all the way from Tanglin to Wheelock to meet us, we sat at Mcdonalds outside Shaw Building as he said he was hungry. We ended up just talking with no one eating at all haha...mom gave me a call and started to complain that i am out too late...guess she is in a PMS-ing mood today...well after which all of us disperse and took night buses home. Fell asleep on many ocassions on the bus ride home, so worried that i may miss my stop and end up somewhere out there...haha well as for the results of the meeting of the Poly Forum committee, even after banging tables and violent objections...NP still doesnt let us have more than 5 people going as officials...and to make matters more *challenging*, the local malay students would be joining us on the second day which would bring a rise to 100 students to 1 official!!!!!!! Why wont they be a bit more understanding!!!! hahaha so now we need to think of 6 more games...eyes getting heavy...gonna stop here i guess....Debbie and Jackson, take care man and rest well!!!

Long day...

2005-08-25T23:10:00.000-07:00

Time: 2.50pm
Amt of chocolates: 0
Amt of ice cream: 0
Stress level: 1 (in a complete relax state now, which i believe wont last for long haha)

Once again i am in SU, the next lesson only starts at 6pm and meeting regarding the Poly Forum is at 4pm. Had my practise session for BCLS today and got the results printed out, not much mistakes 1 mistake on ventilation *coz sometimes i just cant find the mouth of the mannequin with the face shield over it haha. Got 2 mistakes for compressions, 1 too shallow and the other was in wrong position...hmm must had shifted while compressing...haha also have to work on the time limit...over shot by few seconds...but still able to pass i guess...finally its thursday...closing in to the weekends which seemed to be eons away haha...get to sleep late and wake up late, and best of all is NEXT WEEK IS TERM BREAK !!!!!!...haha well now looking for a part time job, just to earn some pocket money from self rather than to always ask from parents...anyone has offers do leave me a message at the tagboard. Thanks. Well guess back to cracking on possible ideas for the Forum.

Time: 11:10pm
Amt of chocolates: 1 packet of Kinder Bueno (umm does licking the bowl of chocolate batter counts?)
Amt of ice cream: 1 cone (too bad they didnt have vanilla, would had gotten 2 !)
Stress level: 0 (meeting went well!!! SUCCESS!!!)

Meeting was a success! We finalised the games, we settled on a really cool theme for social night! Though the meeting dragged a bit longer into my lesson time so i had to skip it but haha i got my friends to copy notes for me! Woohoo!!! Well done to Jackson and Debbie as well despite them being sick and we once were in a PMS-ing mode! Rest well and hope you both would be well soon and on your feets for the Poly Forum! Ok, popped cake batter into oven and have wait...

Heres to the Bitch Agreement Clauses

Ms Ee Hui Min,
In this agreement, you are required to adhere to the clauses mentioned below:

1.) You have to perform our standard greeting whenever we meet regardless of situations.
2.) You would have to withstand my lameness through rain or shine.
3.) Condemning of *Xia Xue* and others is forbidden during my absences, only allowed to when I am present.
4.) You must almost always accompany me when I have strong cravings for desserts.
5.) You are required to be straightforward at all times under almost all circumstances.
6.) You would have to tolerate my insensitivity at times, make it intentional (which I dont think I would) or non-intentional (which usually happens all the time).
7.) You would have to entertain me whenever I go on about my brilliance and intelligence without giving the *diaoz* look *hahaha*

Do take your time to study these clauses drawn as I wait for your favorable reply at the tag board. Thank you.

Yours sincerely,
Wei Siang

Time: 11:55pm
Cake is done...well a few minor cracks due to high temperature...*must note that down*

Totally out...

2005-08-24T23:50:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolates: 0 (OMG!!! hard to believe)
Amt of ice cream: 2 cones (haha well to make up for not eating chocolates)
Stress level: 7.5!!! (due to Poly Forum)

Never was there a day with so many meetings cramped together...haha first was Fun&Splash, then was Sports Club meeting and continuation of Fun&Splash and lastly a Poly Forum meeting among Debbie, Jackson and i...my lessons ended early today at 12pm but only now i get to reach home...the other meetings weren't that bad besides the Poly Forum as most of the stuff are decided and almost finalised...as for the Forum, i have to present the games and themes to Karen tomorrow!!! *yikes*...i am seriously out of ideas, 5 officials in charge of games handling 300 students from different Polytechnics in S'pore!!!...a "amazing race" wont really work as it would turn into an "amazing stampede" instead...this is really a tough one, a game whereby 300 students are able to play simultaneously...well moving off from all the events haha i was nearly late for lessons today, it was so embaressing...everyone were either watching or performing CPR and when i made my enterance, felt like i was being watched haha...and immediately the group i was tagging along with sabotaged me...Ms Yeo asked who was good at infant CPR and all pointed to me...damn...i was like "I BLOODY JUST CAME TO CLASS" haha well the mannequins both had a bit of problems so we spent most of our time trying to fix it, haha we peeled off the face just to connect the pipe...*peeling off of face reminds me of "The Mask"* haha had a print out done today while i was doing my CPR...haha got to note the false starts and the head tilt chin lift position...well went for training as well today...was easy one but after all the stuff that happened today...i am totally drained...a chocolate bar now would do really well =)......

Just sitting around

2005-08-23T23:43:00.000-07:00

Time: 2:10pm
Amt of chocolates: Nil (haha this is just the start of the day)
Amt of Ice cream: Nil (feel like getting one though)

Currently sitting down infront of the computer in Students Union typing this entry...Haha thanks to Eddie and Christine i managed to upload music onto my blog...Well had an interesting lab lesson on Basic Cardiac Life Support *also known as CPR* i was volunteered *unwillingly* to perform this infront of my group...haha made a few mistakes but got the hang of it quite soon. It may seem so relaxed and easy for now, but i thought what happen if this were to happen in real life situation? Make it worst, somewhere out of the hospital...i guess i would panic not be able to focus...*yikes* haha i think would need more practise...haha Grace as usual was so blur!!! she cant even use proper terms to describe the procedures...and the lecturer was kinda irritated by her...well what's new haha...i wonder what would she do if a real scenario actually happens in front of her...well as for the maternal presentation...Chen Lu and Wang Le did a good job! haha congrats man! but feel kinda sorry for them as they have to work with Grace...haha and yep we all know how annoying she could get...well i guess will update later on...*haha think i should go get an ice cream cone! *

Time 11.43pm
Amt of chocolates: 1 Hershey's cookies and cream chocolate (its heaven!!!)
Amt of ice cream: 1 cone

Lessons for the day was finally over, currently slacking at home. Listening to music, crapping online, cracking my brains on games to play on the Poly Forum. Went for the briefing earlier on in the late afternoon, officials to participants is 1:60...we are totally outnumbered...and plus Jackson is sick and the other two are having exams...so its only down with Debbie and I...this is going to be a major challenge for the both of us. Its a large scale event in Malaysia, thank God that my mentor was understanding enough to help me switch the date of my ICA presentation, thats if i could get the class consensus. Haha i really pray that this event would go well as it involves all of Polytechnics in S'pore...well i got to get cracking once more for ideas...

Just moved

2005-08-22T23:00:00.000-07:00

Amt of chocolate : 1 packet (still keeping it to the limit)
Amt of ice creams: 2 cones (not good...but it made my day haha)

Well finally have to the time to do something bout my blog...haha and yep i decided to change the whole thing...the old one sucked though...lessons started at 3pm and ended at 8pm...wasnt that bad but still suffered from monday blues...haha I HATE MONDAYS!!!!!!...well nothing much happened today...just feel so lazy to do anything...had to practise injections, haha finally this was the first productive lesson Doris Foong ever conducted...haha most of the time she is just wasting time...well signing off